Today I am out in the world, enjoying my now without concern for then; riding a train into ‘the city’, visit the museum, maybe some window shopping, a bite of dinner, and meet a friend for an evening out. Sounds fun, and for now I feel safe and sane.  It’s hard not to pretend all is well with the world, harder still to enjoy this right now without being mired in emotional crap and painful weirdness, but I am committed to the idea of it.

Here comes my train…