Generally, these days, not being able to fall asleep easily isn’t a problem when it happens; I’ll fall asleep eventually. Sometime, even now, I have problems with sleep…but I don’t stress out over it when I wake in the night because of nightmares, a leg cramp, or a noise, I can generally fall back to sleep… and when I can’t, I can usually still manage enough rest… well… unless noises I can’t place keep waking me… once I do finally fall asleep… and then… the alarm. I am so damned groggy this morning. There is no river of coffee sufficiently deep and broad to fully wake me. I feel vaguely as if I live in some other reality, only seeing the world around me through a haze. I don’t yet “feel tired” – I’m not awake enough to understand my experience that way. I have another coffee…

…The mindfulness I need, and try to muster, is feeble in the face of this sludgy stiff brain that doesn’t want to begin the day. Nonetheless, it’s time to begin a new day and a new week…