Sometimes I still feel like I’m fighting uphill. Arguing with shadows. Spinning my wheels. Sometimes shit just feels too hard. Even (especially?) the stuff I think “should be” easy.
Fuck I am frustrated and tired. My head hurts. I just wanted…
… doesn’t matter, it didn’t go down like that. There’ll be other times, other moments, other chances. I just wasn’t expecting things to be so damned difficult in this particular instance.
I know, I know, there are practices to practice and I can begin again. Fighting back pointless stupid tears.
… Sometimes I just miss things that were once so easy…
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