Oh, seriously, I could come up with some words, on topics… they could be important…to someone. I have thoughts. Musings. I wonder stuff. I ponder. I contemplate. I query. I even recall having something on the order of a good bit of writing sort of mapped out in my thoughts as I walked to the office this morning; gone now. It’s a nice day, too, overcast and wintry looking; feeling mild and a little damp, and promising more rain to come. I could be inspired to paint or write or…
I meditated this morning, after feeding pets and tidying up a bit. Shared a latte and some quiet moments with a partner a bit later, while another slept (we are each on slightly different schedules with our lives). Today is chill and good almost to the point of encouraging me to think, for a moment, there is really nothing at all amiss with life, love, my wiring… I allow myself the luxury of the moment in a more honest way today; recognizing there is work to be done, improvements in self and habit to be made, and things to ‘deal with’ more appropriately than I have… but I have ‘right now’, and it feels good, so I’m feeling that. This, too, is my experience. My now. My life. In this moment, I am and it is enough.
My thoughts are suddenly crowded with ‘things to do’ that are on my list – both mental and written. It seems like a very long list. I give myself a needed moment of compassion and recognition (new for me) and remind myself that I make lists because I so easily forget small important details and that life generally moves along pretty simply with the occasional glance at a list and a quick update. I feel less driven and anxious. Treating myself well, too, not just other people, is a big part of having a good experience. Lesson learned. Today I am enjoying my experience.
Evening Light 
eventful or not, i believe that your blogging about this journey is highly valuable in several ways. the day to day and hour to hour changing of perspective, the dawning realizations, the honest searching, all of these being verbalized as they are are helping to create a bridge from the frightened, painfilled, internal you to the world outside you. this bridge means you won’t have to be imprisoned in solitude if you don’t choose to be.
the new understandings about the nature of happiness are hugely relevant and i am so excited to see this real growth occurring. i know it sounds trite but there is actually deep deep truth to the adage that happiness isn’t the destination, it truly is the journey. you are starting to fathom what this means which means this post is far from uneventful! the bad days and hours will never disappear but they can become far less important as you keep on this journey.
Thank you, Nalla, I value your perspective. 😀
Lovely 🙂
Though my personally tendency is to muse by writing only on distressful thoughts, it seems it should be just as important to capture the beautiful moments — rather like medical testing should publish all results, not just [fill in the blank].
I agree, Jo! Certainly there is a joy all it’s own I associate with re-experiencing good times through words about them. 😀