I’m awake. No point in it. I hear my beloved Traveling Partner sleeping in the adjacent room. I hope not to wake him. I tried just going back to sleep. Tonight, that doesn’t work. I’m awake. It’s been an hour of quiet sleeplessness.

I get up. Take a Benadryl (sometimes that helps). I make some Calm and drink that. Sometimes that helps. I put Capsaicin on painful places. Sometimes that helps. I meditate. Stretch. Breathe quietly and calmly in the darkness. I read for a little while.

… Still awake…

Well, shit. I sigh and shrug, unseen in the quiet darkness. I try “changing the channel” on the little noise generator the VA sent me. Huh. I feel sleepy…a bit, at least. I write a few words, let that feeling of sleepiness catch up to my busy mind.

… I try sleep again…