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I wrote this the morning of my second day camping, this past weekend. There was no connectivity at all, so uploads had to wait.

By “the end” of the day, yesterday, (which was not quite 18:30 as it turned out, in spite of being a Friday night) I was in so much pain I no longer much cared whether I had trekked “enough” of my gear to my campsite. It was only 137 steps each way, from the car to the site, but I had walked it so many times I couldn’t continue. My knee ached. My plantar fasciitis was seriously aggravated. I managed to resurrect an old shoulder injury setting up the tent. The opposite shoulder and neck were screaming at me to take something for that pain. My headache was bad. My back ached too. I’m not cataloging my pain for sympathy, I’m just saying this fragile vessel had had enough and was making it painfully obvious (lol).

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Getting off my feet helped. Getting some sleep helped – and the luxury of 12 hours of deep sleep interrupted only once (had to pee) was thoroughly appreciated when I woke, slowly, to the sound of birdsong and breezes, and sunshine. The morning was cool and mild. I made myself a dreadful cup of (thoroughly insipid) coffee (too much water, didn’t grind enough beans). I didn’t really care,  it was good enough to wake up over.

Sometimes it’s about something other than “quality”. 

My feet hurt less this morning, but I need my cane to walk at all. My arthritis screams at me for attention, but my headache is much reduced. I guess I’ll make a point to notice and appreciate that. I brought a couple unread new books, and in the shape I’m in, it seems a good day to laze about improving my mind through the written word, or, you know, napping. 😆

I make myself a breakfast of cup noodles and half of a small sweet melon, and sit in the sunshine. Next, a book and a better cup of coffee. For now, me, a moment, and quiet time with my own thoughts over breakfast. I sigh contentedly. Right now the pain doesn’t even matter. Too much gear? Not enough gear? Doesn’t matter.  What matters is taking care of myself on my own terms. What matters is this moment of sweet quiet solitude and this opportunity to begin again (in spite of the pain I’m in).

Restful night. Pleasant morning. Good walk down a familiar trail. I feel prepared for the day ahead, organized, calm, and comfortable in my body. It’s a good starting point for the (day and the) week.  The weekend was a good one, although nothing stands out as noteworthy; it was well-spent in the good company of my Traveling Partner. I got a few things done without exhausting myself.

The colors of morning.

A colorful sunrise greeted me as I reached the trailhead. The parking lot was empty (it generally is at this hour). I enjoyed the trail to myself and watched the sun rise as I walked. It’s a lovely Monday morning, two days before my birthday.

…There’s no significance to this particular birthday (61), and I have no particular plans. I’ve already received my birthday presents; my Traveling Partner loves making me smile and seeing my joy, and it’s hard for him to wait for the actual day. lol I don’t mind at all. I feel very loved.

I sit with the sunshine at my back, perched on a picnic table a short walk from the car, writing, thinking, and enjoying the start of this new day. We don’t know how many beautiful sunrises we may see in one mortal lifetime… I hope I have many more, and take time to appreciate them all!

…Monday…

…A lifetime goes by so quickly…

The season is beginning to be more summer than Spring. This morning I’ll begin watering the lawn and garden on a summer schedule. Working from home makes such things pretty easy to stick with. Last week I took some of my meetings (remotely) in the garden, and it was delightful. It also brought my attention to a couple tasks I’ve fallen behind on; I’d let the salad greens bolt, and the weeds are getting out of hand. I spent some weekend time putting things right. I brought in a noteworthy harvest of fresh peas.

…Time spent in the garden seems to run on a different clock…

An ordinary enough life, on a contented joyful Monday morning, feeling purposeful and prepared. This is an experience built over time. Built on carefully chosen practices, and principles of resilience, sufficiency, self-care, mindfulness, and non-attachment. I work at this, and my results vary. I’m for sure going to enjoy it when things are truly going well, and I am feeling good. Pain? Not relevant this morning, and it fades into the background as I enjoy the moment. (“This too will pass.” Change is.)

…So much of my day-to-day joy and contentment is built on steady practices and incremental change over time. It’s achievable. Reliable. There are verbs involved…but it is possible to get from “there” to “here” through those means. Start. Practice. Fail. Begin again. Repeat. Don’t take the required effort personally, just do the needful.

I breathe, exhale, and relax. I feel the shadows of bad dreams in the night dissipate in the morning sunshine. I’m here, now, and it’s a lovely morning to begin again.